He made me feel so special. He made me feel like I was the most important person in his world. I was never boy crazy, and never really felt ready to date, but with him, it was different. I did not know why I was so attached, even when he did something wrong. Was this love? I always see tweets about real love and staying even when it’s tough and working through the problems. So am I in love with this guy?
I couldn’t tell what it was. He just made me feel good. He motivated me to be a better person, he was there through my toughest moments and didn’t ever ask for much. It really seemed like he loved me. But I guess I was wrong.
How could you love someone so much, and tell them how much you want to be with them, but you choose another girl? You did not choose me, you chose her. Even though she tears you down and tells you that you are a bad person. I lifted you up, I kept you smiling and laughing. I took care of you even when I didn’t have to. But you chose her. Did I do something wrong? Did I not please you enough? What does she have that I don’t?
These thoughts will forever linger in my mind when I think of you. We planned our whole future together down to our kids and their kids. I never felt like this about anyone before. I thought you were real. I thought I was your everything. But the whole time, she was your everything. She was always your priority. You went the extra mile for her and did the bare minimum for me. I was blinded by your words and your gentle touch. How did I not see this coming?
I am shining now. I have let go of you and moved on. I realize my worth, and I know who I am. I see why it was easy to attach myself to you. You’re a drug for the vulnerable. You made me weaken myself so you can appear stronger. I am stronger than you. I was before I met you, and I am even stronger now that I don’t know you anymore. I am beautiful. I was before I met you, and I am radiant now that you aren’t telling me how I look. I am smart. I was before I met you, and I am intelligent now that I have learned my lesson by knowing you.
Thank you for the sprinkles of water when I was just a small plant and letting me sprout to a beautiful tree I learned to love me.